I'm such a closed person, but why? WHY.
Why do I trust you completely? Why did I choose you? Why do I hate telling people things, but I'm willing to tell you anything. Why am I naturally close to you (physically & emotionally)?Why does my day feel incomplete without talking to you? Why are we able to do absolutely nothing together, and be content? Why did I tell you that story? The only person I've ever told. Why do you treat me so well? Why is it so weird? Why is it so wrong?
You've been around for a while, and I've brushed it off for so long. It's not like this was a surprise. Why in the world did I ask? I've asked before. What made it different? Is it because I knew you would tell me? You tell me everything. I feel like I can tell you everything. Or is it because I thought so, but I still couldn't believe it. Or maybe it's because I need some kind of verification. It's because I told you that confession. That story. That truth.
Everything you're telling me is everything I imagined. You're everything I imagined, and it scares me. I've only seen one negative glance of you, and that is nothing. I've never gotten upset at you. There's no negative things about you. I feel like you're my best friend, even though I don't use that term. This is all so foreign to me. You do everything he didn't. You do everything I wish he did or I wanted from him. You do it without trying. You don't even know. I never told you.
It's so fast, too fast. Why does everything seem to go so fast for me? This is at a completely different level than last time.
You make me feel good about myself. Am I just feeding off of what you tell me? Are these really feelings? You say such nice things.
I should be going through a breakup, not falling for someone else.
I'm afraid of hurting you. I trust you. I do not believe that you would ever hurt me (on purpose). I feel like I'd be the one hurting you, and I would never want to do that. I care about you too much to hurt you.
I'm afraid of this being a rebound.
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I'm afraid that I might be right.
I'm afraid that I might be wrong.
I'm afraid of what people will think.
I'm afraid of making people think they're right.
I'm afraid to talk to someone about this.
I'm afraid of why it feels so right, so natural.
Is it wrong that I can imagine myself with you in the future, but I've never thought about it with anyone else. I knew that I wouldn't marry Kevin, but it's different with you. I feel like I wouldn't know what to do if we didn't talk to each other anymore. It's not like Eric. It's not like anyone else. I can joke with you, but I've also had many serious conversations with you. I feel like you're such a support for me. I feel the need to tell you important things first. I don't know what this is.
I'm scared out of my mind.
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