Stopped working at the preschool. Just letting you lovely readers know. Too much to handle, and didn't work with my schedule. In the end, wasn't worth it to work there.

Big sibling application, check. Big sibling workshop, check. To do: Big sibling application part 2, point track sheet.

That's what Brotherhood is though, isn't it? Opening up to individuals, sharing and telling stories. Understanding why it is that they are they way. Good talk though. F'real. Weird, when I think about it. I don't believe I've ever really spilled my guts out before. 'Cause I think that's the most I've spilt at one time. I'm glad it's mutual though. I got you, bro. I just hope it's mutual. I think it is though, I think it is. Small world.I'm curious how long our talk would have went if we didn't have anywhere to go/anything to do.

Taking the plunge. If I didn't care, I wouldn't be freaking out so much. I wouldn't be worrying. I want this so badly. I haven't taken a step outside my comfort zone in a while. I need to stand on my own two feet. I need to accomplish something for myself. I need to do this for me, it's what I've always wanted.

Swimming session is over already. I can't believe it :( The first day really wasn't what I expected. I realize how much attention special kids truly need. Learned to be more assertive, don't worry about hurting them, hand-over-hand, communicating, disciplining, isolating, thinking on your feet, encouragement. I hope my Giggle Monster comes back for the November session :)

 Mental health is interesting. Still getting used to it. They definitely make me smile and laugh though, and although I'm not used to the atmosphere, everyone is really friendly and welcoming. I wish all humans were like that.

These bruises (on my arms)
one day they will
fade. No longer
Black blue purple yellow
Hidden underneath
tone so simple
invisible, yet there
always there
always felt.
Aware, acknowledged.
Ignored. 
Permanent.

If you're wondering, nothing is wrong. Just go about your day as usual :)

Active retreat this weekend. Planning mode time.