Funny how the things we want in life don't end up the way we plan. So I did really want Frosh Orientation Leader, probably more than the majority of people who applied, but honestly, I'm still struggling to look on the bright side of things. Maybe I'm just not cut out for it. Sure, I made it to the last round of the selection process, but honestly, I didn't get it and I can't change their mind. I'm not one to mention why exactly I wanted it. And I'm not one to speak highly about myself. Maybe that's what I did wrong. I didn't speak extremely well about myself, but then again, who's comfortable with that? I knew I wasn't going to get it when I left my interview. I knew it didn't go well. It's funny because everyone around me saw me as an Orientation Leader. They thought I'd be good at it. They thought it fit who I was, and honestly, I really really really really wish I tried last year. For now, I guess I'll try finding something that's better suited for me. I guess I'll try to find something else to get me more involved. Honestly, I just want to step outside my comfort zone. I'm in need of a challenge. I want to look for something to do with my life. I want to be able to help others, to mentor others, to lead by example, to be who I am and love it. I want to share with others my love for this school, share what this school has done for me, how I've grown. I want to help others, and guide them into this journey. This is what I like to do. I like to help people transition. I like to help people who are starting new chapters in their lives. It's what I'm good at, it's what I like. Maybe that's why I'm so interested in helping with potentials and pledges. I didn't realize it in the beginning, but that's why I've held my positions. Recruitment chair, pledge assistant, rush chair- all positions which are extremely hands on with new members. That's what I like. And maybe not getting Orientation Leader is a good thing, it allows me more time to work on my ultimate goal- PT/PE. It's what I want to do. All the blood, sweat, and tears- I'm willing. I'm willing, but am I ready? I need more steps to help me. I'm not ready yet. I miss Link Crew, honestly. After applying for Frosh Orientation, I kept thinking about my experience with Link Crew, and how it felt helping the freshmen out, facilitating events, and ultimately, being role models for them. I think about all the games we played and the different team building activities we learned. I guess I wish I really was apart of the Frosh Orientation crew, because ultimately, Link Crew didn't teach me enough. There's so much more for me to learn. There's so much stuff out there.. all I want to do is experience it. I want to learn more so I can do more.