Maybe I am a little more passionate about Alpha Phi Omega than I thought, but honestly, it saddens know knowing how much the chapter has changed. Yes, I've heard it goes through changes... but honestly, I'm a little heart-broken. I'm the one aspiring to be so many things, yet I'm extremely disappointed in the chapter. Who would have thought it'd get so low.

I wish I knew how poorly educated this last pledge class was when I was a part of it.
I have so much faith in this semester's pledge program, please oh please don't let me down.

All I want to do is sleep.I feel light-heading, I feel like I'm typing with my eyes closed. I'm tired of 7AM days, please end soon.

It's hard to be enthusiastic with all these events, knowing that it's not the best I could do. There's so much room to improve. I'm honestly really drained right now, and there's still a week left, four more events.

I'm off, I'm lagging, I'm not doing too great. It shouldn't be this difficult. I don't understand how and why this is so hard. I honestly don't know why, it shouldn't be.

So much to do this semester. Work, 150 hours+ of volunteering for class, active requirements, picking up.. I honestly didn't realize how much I had on my plate until last night. I'm scared I won't make it.