Blogging

This sounds pretty weird, but currently, I want a blog. I know it sounds silly because I have a blog. If I don't have a blog, then I have no idea where all these ramblings and writings go. However, for the past year or so, all I've wanted is a blog. Actually, I even teamed up with Mel and Judy to start a lifestyle blog. I don't update it very often. Yet.. I still want one of my own. Maybe it's the greedy side of me that doesn't want to share.

I've  been catching up on blogs lately. My list of blogs I follow on Blog Lovin' continues to grow and grow. Yet, there's still an empty place in my heart where my blog belongs.

I was talking with Mel the other day, and it's silly because I came to the conclusion that blogs are really... conceited. I follow many many fashion blogs, and those include OOTD pictures and various other pictures of the blogger. Honestly, I believe I'm pretty nervous about uploaded picture of myself online. Sure, I've done it before, but it's weird. Ish.

I've decided what kind of blog I want though. I want a lifestyle photo blog. Remember when I used to take mountains and mountains of pictures? That's what I want again. Eventually, one day when I purchase my DSLR (which I know I've been saying for over  a year now), I want a place to showcase my pictures. I want an area where I can document things that I do. A place where I can talk about my daily life where I can look back and reminisce. I want to be able to make time for a blog. Make time for the things that I love, and document my new experiences. I want to document various things like the food I eat and make. I want to show my journey of trying to find my personal style. I realize that having a record is actually cool. My style has changed a lot since middle school and although I still haven't found "my look," it's really interesting to see what I could potentially make out of my current wardrobe.

I want to have a record of my life so that when I look back on this, I can remember what I accomplished in college. I want a blog similar to what instagram does, but with more skill than using a set filter. I want to learn about photography and document my progression. I want a hobby, and I want it to be blogging.

I want to be able to look at something written in my own words and remember my own memories.

I am tired of spending money. I honestly really should get a job, but I don't really think I have time.

I'm taking on a lot next semester, but I feel like I never take on enough. Only 12 units for my major next semester. My major is sometimes really a joke. Sometimes I wish I was challenged more so I would put more effort into the things I do.
Excomm next semester.
I interviewed for this class at SJSU. Hopefully I get it. It's a leadership development class which allows individuals to learn and grow as leaders. It provides skills which are beneficial to peer leadership opportunities on campus, or even anything really. Only 18 students get it, and hopefully I'm one of them.

I'm currently debating. Right now I can walk in Spring 2014, and do my internship in Summer 2014. I wouldn't technically graduate until after my internship. But the internship is a 10 unit class, and in summer you have to pay per unit. Maybe I'll do internship in the fall.. and technically, I would be able to still take classes. Which would free up my summer, in hopes that I could potentially try for Frosh Orientation Leader one more time. But let's be honest, they don't take people who are about to graduate.

So if I end up going to grad school for speech pathology (the major I originally wanted), I'm going to have to do about a year-year and a half of core work in order to get into grad school. 5.5 years of college + 1.5 of core work Before I even get into grad school. Is that even what I really want to accomplish? I'm searching for what I want to do, again. But who really knows? We're all young anyway.

All I want is.. a job that I enjoy making enough money for me to live comfortably. And enough money to support myself and my family if (knock on wood) anything ever happened and I need to be a single mother.

As for what I enjoy studying.. I enjoyed this semester a lot, actually. I got to interact with people with disabilities. & I got to learn a lot about disabilities and I really enjoyed it. I worked with people aging from 4-40, and I loved it. My favorite were the teens and children. This is good. I kind of know what I like now. Maybe I'll do into special education. Or adaptive physical education. And yet, I still think about speech pathology. At the same time, learning abut mental illnesses is really exciting. Although working with adults with mental illnesses and developmental disabilities wasn't really my favorite. I just like studying it. Eating disorders are also really interesting to me.