Poem Poser

Image by Jen Wong

Already Gone

I knew this was going to happen.
I had a talk with myself
I knew it & accepted it
Slowly, for some reason I changed my mind
I thought,
'You know what? You're wrong.
They care about you
You were in in their lives so much
that you can't possibly be forgotten.
They love you. They'll never disappear.
They'll try to contact you, so be strong when they do.
You're the one that will push them away.'
I was right before those thoughts
They're gone, never tried anything.
Sad to say that they'll probably pretend it never happened.
They don't care that I was mad
They don't know that I was mad.
They don't care that I moved on
They never knew I was mad.
They are them.
They will always be them.
Don't tell me to move on because I already have.
(I wish I was a better liar)
The future is what worries me
I've trained myself not to tell them these details in my life
They accepted it, they don't care
They told me just enough
And yet...
I am last to know anything
I'm last because I'm not there
I disappeared.
I'm gone.
Everyone wishes to disappear.
When it happens, people regret it.
As for me, who cares?
I'm already gone.
1/10/10

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all the memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye
Kelly Clarkson - Already Gone

When I was in 4th grade, I decided I wanted to be a poet. I thought I was just so amazing for writing:
Teacher teacher likes to teach
She also likes to reach
Every time she gets a peach
I know, I was such a genius. In middle school, I got a poem published, and gave a speech about poetry. Whatever happened to me as a poet? I retired (not really). Here's the truth: I don't really know how to write poems. I know, I fail. Joanna told me that sometimes I write in a poem style though. Who knows if I'm really a poet or not. I just like pressing the "Enter" button. That's me, the poem poser.