Rainy Days & Sundays

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Things I love about the rain:

1. The window fills with raindrops & they dance along the window in front of my eyes
   
2. The little ripple effect the raindrops have on puddles
3. Splashing in puddle & Prancing around in rain boots
4. Imagining romantic scenes in the rain
5. Seeing people share (umbrellas)
6. Dancing in the rain
   
7. Knowing that even the most optimistic people have sad days too
8. Keeping dry & warm & drinking hot beverages (tea, water, hot chocolate)
9. Thinking (It seems to come more natural when it rains)
10. Colorful umbrellas & rain boots
11. Adventures! Like the one I had with Mel! (Wow, I feel so proud of myself for linking something/one. Aren't you proud of me, Mel?) & Getting ICE CREAM SUNDAYS!
    
12. When it hails & it looks like it snows
13. Comfy & warm (& dry!) clothes
    
14. Brightening people's days
15. Wearing bright colors
    

Things I don't love about rain:

1. People can't see my bring colors under all my layers
   
2. Some people have no where to go
   
3. Car accidents.
   
4. Walking around in wet clothing
   
5. Everyone seems to be in a rush & looks super sad
   
6. Waking up in the morning & getting out of bed
7. Getting sick

I'm heading back to San Jose on Sunday & I'm really excited! I know how dorky it sounds, but I really am. I'm not excited for the school part. In fact, I am really scared because last semester I didn't do very well. Don't worry, I know what I'm supposed to do now (maybe that's what I'm worried about). Hopefully this semester will still be fun. Either way, I'm excited to be surrounded by people. I'm really excited to meet new people and hopefully gain some new friends. I love the beginning of a new semester! I'll post up some goals as the time gets closer. Until then, I'll just stay excited.

There's something about the way
The street looks when it's just rained
There's a glow on the pavement
Taylor Swift - Fearless

Poem Poser

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Already Gone

I knew this was going to happen.
I had a talk with myself
I knew it & accepted it
Slowly, for some reason I changed my mind
I thought,
'You know what? You're wrong.
They care about you
You were in in their lives so much
that you can't possibly be forgotten.
They love you. They'll never disappear.
They'll try to contact you, so be strong when they do.
You're the one that will push them away.'
I was right before those thoughts
They're gone, never tried anything.
Sad to say that they'll probably pretend it never happened.
They don't care that I was mad
They don't know that I was mad.
They don't care that I moved on
They never knew I was mad.
They are them.
They will always be them.
Don't tell me to move on because I already have.
(I wish I was a better liar)
The future is what worries me
I've trained myself not to tell them these details in my life
They accepted it, they don't care
They told me just enough
And yet...
I am last to know anything
I'm last because I'm not there
I disappeared.
I'm gone.
Everyone wishes to disappear.
When it happens, people regret it.
As for me, who cares?
I'm already gone.
1/10/10

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all the memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye
Kelly Clarkson - Already Gone

When I was in 4th grade, I decided I wanted to be a poet. I thought I was just so amazing for writing:
Teacher teacher likes to teach
She also likes to reach
Every time she gets a peach
I know, I was such a genius. In middle school, I got a poem published, and gave a speech about poetry. Whatever happened to me as a poet? I retired (not really). Here's the truth: I don't really know how to write poems. I know, I fail. Joanna told me that sometimes I write in a poem style though. Who knows if I'm really a poet or not. I just like pressing the "Enter" button. That's me, the poem poser.

Smile-Worthy

This morning Mom made me smile, and I just knew that today was going to be a good day. I was right. Today was great. I think optimism is taking over my life, but let me tell you one thing. I don't care. Everything is just smile-worthy.

Little Things That Made Jen Smile Today

• Mom reminding me of her kindness & compassion
• The Fellow Five. Bonding time, spending time together laughing about nothing & enjoying life
• Trisha's face, no lie. Compliment, Missy. Compliment.
  
• Seeing a stranger drop a penny. When I tried to return it, she just handed it to me & gave me an extremely genuine smile
• Hello Kitty (Got my Hello Kitty fix at the downtown store. Love. & They were playing "That's What You Get"!)
• Dropping my Jamba giftcard, then seeing a little girl pick it up & return it to me. Kids are some of the kindest people in the world. It's great to see that kindness through someone
  
• The work ethic (Is that the right word?) of a Starbucks employee (Even though he was no Tim or Elizabeth)
• Grande light iced chai tea latte with soy milk. Sorry Tully's, but it's totally better from Starbucks. Why yes, my name is Trisha. Thank you for noticing.
  

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• Film & digital cameras at Urban Outfitters & DIY photo book. I have no idea how long I was there, but it was worth all the time. Love.

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• Drunk list & shot glasses
• Learning to boo UCLA & cheer for USC
• Awesome wallet. No lie.
  

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• Motorcyclist that completely matched his motorcycle. He blasted music without a care in the world & seemed to hold so much confidence
• Friendly tourists. They have so much joy in everything & view things from a completely different perspective
• Walking by nice music, but having no idea what the songs are. Music can stop a person dead in their tracks, literally
  
• Paying youth fare on the bus
• Strangers' selfless love towards others & heroic actions! A man jumped down onto the train tracks to get a lady's cell phone
• An old Asian couple. They were sitting next to each other, showing love that gravitated towards me. They weren't holding hands, but it was in the way they talked to each other that I knew they loved each other (Remember I can't understand anythings besides English)
• Taxis, Yellow cars, Out of state license plates, and Jump-for-Funs
• Being welcomed into a house!
• Joanna being Joanna
• Jenn's old-school toy collected. Toy Story, Rugrats, Mulan, Classic-vintage Hello Kitty. So much fun just to be a little kid again

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• The noise old keyboards make. It's like taking a trip back in time
• The decorated house with the Friendship Bench
  
• Lydia's happiness. Believe me when I say how genuine it is.
• Adventurous drinks. Blueberry Milk Tea
• Memories from way-back when
  
• Rockband. That's What You Get & Chop Suey (Ran out of time for BYOB)

Maybe I should make Smile-Worthy lists more often. I really enjoyed this. & never fear, I won't write as much next time. I got way carried away because today was such a great day. & sorry it's photo heavy, but trust me. I took way more pictures than this.

& Urban Outfitters is a pretty cool store. Sure, I've been in there a few times, but I guess I just headed straight to the clothes. Their other stuff is madd (with two D's) cool. I have to say those cameras stole a chunk of my heart. Sorry, Future Husband.

Ready or Not

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Nathan & I went to Christmas in the park before leaving San Jose. I was supposed to blog about it, plus Christmas and a whole list of things, but finals and life got the better of me & no entries. Sorry about that. Maybe I'll get to it later. I'm not making any promises.

I keep looking at the fact that it's January 1, 2010 and I still can't process the information. 2009 just past. What to say, what to say? I graduated high school and started college. I've completely been erased from people's lives and I've made my way into others' lives. I've learned so much and I know absolutely nothing. 2009 has been filled with ups and downs, and many experiences that I'm not sure what to make of. Despite all the polar opposites, 2009 was a pretty good year.

If I only learned one thing in 2009 it's this, no matter how temporary relationships with other people are, the ones who love me will stick.
Life is short. I have no problem admitting that. Life is short. Tell people how you feel because tomorrow they may disappear. If you died tomorrow, would you be happy with the way you lived your life?

Whether you're ready or not, 2010 is here.

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So here's to 2010. (20-10 is supposed to be the correct way of stating it). May 2010 bring just as many, if not more life lessons than 2009. May it bring great friendships and life-changing experiences. May it bring exactly what each & every one of us needs in our life. May it cause us to live life to the fullest and take advantage of every opportunity we get.