Haven't been wanting to be held in a while, but today's different. It's not even a big deal, but I guess it feels this way. I wish I knew what I was getting myself into. All I need is some consistency. How am I supposed to schedule my life when it keeps changing? Peeve's been in his new home for a little more than 24 hours. Not quite sure if he's fully adjusted yet. It's only Monday? Can the weekend be here sooner? I feel so exhausted & I keep getting headaches.

Four more days of break. Time to get my act together.

Saturday: Home, Dinner, Clean room/organize donation items
Sunday: Service, Donate stuff, Hang Out
Monday: SJ, Work, Get last minute school stuff, Grocery Shop
Tuesday: Organize, last day of fun, work
Wednesday: GET DOWN TO BUSINESS.

Here's to this semester. 13 units, Work, Hopefully a position (fingers crossed), being active. Let's do this. Kind of want to minor too... so this semester, I'm dedicating it to FIGURING IT OUT. I'm thinking Chad. 'cause honestly that's like the only thing I'd minor in. I'm already going to be here FOREVER. Might as well minor. And I forgot about the museum.. yeah, that's last on my priority list. I'm just going to add that to "Places to volunteer and worry about after I finish requirements"
I kind of sort of really like how work is so far. 'cause working with friends is way chill. can it just be like this forever? I think I kind of sort of really just like how Fridays are since all the kids get picked up early.
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If ______ can do it, you can do it.

DO EVERYTHING 'cause if not, you're getting absolutely nothing done.

GET ORGANIZED.

If I was still naive & didn't know any better, I wouldn't think a year is a big deal. But honestly, it's a huge deal.. kind of. Well it would have been. I guess it doesn't seem very huge now because there's plenty of time to celebrate in the future. Plus celebrating seems kind of lame. Then again I'm the master of being lame, heheh
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I guess I am kind of sad that we didn't do anything super duper special, but that's my fault. I 'gotta stop being lazy. I need to start making decisions again. No more "I don't know" I wish I had time to get fancied up (If you want something, do it yourself)
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I thought it'd be hard to come up with 52 reasons why I love him, but actually it was easy and I came up with more than double. I forget how great he is sometimes. Actually, I think I just take him for granted a little too much. Sometimes I doubt myself, but then I remember that I honestly don't know what I'd do without him. Scary, but true.
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Kind of sort of really getting sick of all these people over at the apartment drinking like, every night. Really hope it doesn't continue into the school year. I'd like to go to sleep in peace, thank you very much.
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Focus on school & work (while still being active) or take on a position, work, & school. Dang it, I don't think I like these decisions. I thought I made up my mind already, but drawing out my schedule intimidates me, even though it's not that intense
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Starting next week when I go back to school goals:

1. Eat healthy (research on more healthy blogs)
   
2. Eat out twice a week max (crap, this is going to be hard..)
3. Stop fighting exercise. Just do it.
   
4. Knock out requirements early. Just do it.
5. Stay on top of readings!
   
6. No skipping class. I was so close last semester! Now I have 9AM class though :(
   

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• T: Black Bear Diner, Work (Super tight hugs, Disneyland talk for DAYS, New kids, Kids not sitting 'cause they were too exciting, lots of chasing, chess, & homework with the triplets), House, Leftovers, Home
• W: Woke up late, presents, lunch, Work (Awkward, chatting & catching up, Missing faces & familiar faces, Toaster & shark/dolphin & baby & dancers, awkward visit, gummy worms), Cheesecake Factory (Tuxedo), Beauty & The Beast 3D, Home
  
• R: Woke up late, Costco, Target, Dollar Tree, Safeway, Home, Pizza & Cookies, Shutter Island, Time Confusion
  

I have so many ideas and aspirations, I need to do something. Time to re-think where I want to be in life.
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If you're going to insist on hanging out with me & I give you a day & you're busy, don't keep insisting on other days when I'm busy then go back to the initial day I said, make plans, then cancel the day of. Or try to change them last minute when I clearly was trying to confirm plans the day before.

So I guess I'm going to give up on you 'cause it doesn't make sense to keep trying. I'll just wait for you to reach out to me. But when you do, I'll be ready. I really hope you're doing well 'cause I kind of miss you a little. Hope life is treating you well, I'll see you in the future (maybe).
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I'm SO LAZY, and I don't get anything done when I have ALL THIS TIME. I need a deadline, for real. I guess if I work tonight, I still have tomorrow night and Friday night, Saturday, and Sunday during the day. Or I can just put it off until summer.
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So here's my choice. APO or school. I wanted to be a PA this semester & I spent hecka time deciding between PA & Awards Chair. In the end, I decided to try & be a PA. But after some thinking & looking at my schedule... I think I might just add one more class to my schedule. If I add one more (where I want it to be) I'll be at 16 units, and about 12 hours of work a week & being active & I wanna volunteer at the museum more in my spare time. I think I can do it. But honestly, I'm not sure what I'll be getting myself into. I'm not a very serious student & I've never taken more than 15 units at a time & I'm actually taking major classes.. :/ What to do, what to do.

I need to stop jumping ahead of myself. Here's my list of things to do today (IN THIS ORDER)

1. Type Wong Family Movie List
2. Clean room
3. Make Christmas Card
4. Wrap Christmas Present
5. FIGURE OUT WHAT TO DO
6. Eh, I probably won't get this far.

Oh & at 8 get on Skype.
I should probably stop being a bum and shower..

Stranger: Excuse me miss, I couldn't help notice you're really pretty
Me: Oh, thank you
Stranger: I was wondering, are you single?
Me: No, I'm not. Sorry!
Stranger: Well, what's your name?
Me: I actually have to get going right now. Sorry.

WAY TOO UNCOMFORTABLE. The guy was like... 30, probably. AHH.