Sometimes I Wish

At times, I wish it was how it used to be. Sometimes I wish I talked to people from high school. Sometimes I wish I could keep in touch better. Sometimes I wish I would tell people how I feel. Sometimes I wish I could talk to people differently. Sometimes I wish I could have serious conversations with people. Sometimes I wish I could be bolder with my decisions. Sometimes I wish I was able to stay focused when needed. Sometimes I wish I was a better student. Sometimes I wish I was able to tell people my beliefs openly. Sometimes I wish I was better with words. Sometimes I wish I was able to say "No" easier. Sometimes I wish I knew music. Sometimes I wish I was able to write a song that actually told the story I wanted to. Sometimes I wish people would take me seriously. Sometimes I wish I knew what it's like. Sometimes I wish I was able to sense it. Sometimes I wish I was able to affect people's lives as much as I try. Sometimes I wish it was easier to talk about things. Sometimes I wish I was able to hug someone and really mean it. Sometimes I wish I knew how to ask. Sometimes I wish I was able to run when I want to. Sometimes I wish I was able to let things go better. Sometimes I wish I'd stop wishing.

Updates on Goals

I have a lot of stuff to do this week! I should be extremely stressed out. I guess I kind of am, but at the same time I'm just chilling. I guess because I'm a week early for everything, but I still feel like I have enough time to focus on nothing. For example, I'm doing this blog right now, then I'm heading off to do my Bio study guide.
Because I'm half-way into my first semester, I think it's a good idea to go over those goals I posted before. So here we go- updates!

1. Find fellowship/church - So I've been doing pretty good on this. So far I've checked out Pulse, InterVarsity, and AACF. I know for sure I want to continue going to Pulse, but I'm not sure about InterVarsity or AACF. As for finding a church, I have yet to check out a church on a Sunday yet. I tried to check out the church on campus (The River, I think) twice, but I over-slept both times. FAIL.
   
2. Talk to "That Guy" - SUCCESS! Although I haven't really gotten to know him, I have had a few conversations with him and he seems like a really nice person, so far.
   
3. Make Brian get out of his shell (Because Pang said he's shy) - I actually haven't gotten to talk to him as much as I wanted to, but he has approached me and it makes me happy. I really don't think he's shy. I guess people have different views on people. I wonder if it's right to mention names like this? Oh well.
   
4. Talk to "Guy that reminds me of Ryan" in Bio - SUCCESS! I've talked to him and we have a mutual thing going on about sitting next to each other and a lot of small talk, though it's a really, really small thing going on. I wish I could break down the barrier like I usually do, but it's hard when I'm in class to listen and not to talk.
   
5. Talk to "Skater Kid" in Sociology - Sophia was actually telling me about him. She told me not to talk to him. I respect her opinion a lot, so I'm staying clear of him. Anyways, let's think of a new goal. I met a new guy named Matt-Matt (He lets me call him that) and my new goal is to talk to him! New friend, yay! Also, I want to talk to the guy in class that lives in the same building as me, but I don't know his name. We say hi, but my new goal is to get to know him & his name!
   
6. Learn how to skateboard - DONE... kind of. I learned how to go & turn! I don't really have a skateboard or anything, but I kind of know how. Anna taught me how to go, & so did Audio Drew! THAT, my friends, was an adventure I still need to blog about. SUPER fun though, really.
   
7. Make new friends - Who would I be if I haven't made new friends by now? Anyways, goal accomplished & I'm still wanted to meet new friends! Friends, not acquaintances.
   
8. Take bus home rather than get a ride - I've only been home one time so I can't really say I've been following this goal, but I'll try taking the bus again. Maybe I'll take it by myself one day
   
9. Start running again - I tried. I ran once, but other than that I really haven't. I'm really going to try and start running though. Next week maybe, when I'm not as busy or stressed
   
10. Eat healthier - Another goal I can say is working! The salad bar is my friend! I like how there's always celery & carrots- YUM! Although the ratio of what I eat to the hours I spend eating in the DC are off.... so I should work on that.
    
11. Explore downtown - Haven't really done it yet, but I will! I am proud to say I know where Safeway & a bunch of other places are. I need to find Target!
    
12. Webcam daily - Failed, kind of. What can I say? I still feel no need to contact high school people..... at least not enough to webcam with them. The Fellow Five? I've webcamed with Joanna & Trisha, but that's it.
    
13. Keep in touch with friends - I need to do a better job of this. I'll call you eventually, Mel!
    
14. Write letters - I'm still in the process of writing letters. I need to write to Nicole, Monette & Tiffany, then I can send them all out, but I'm almost done!
    
15. STUDY - Still working on that, but I'm starting this week!